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After all.

2010-01-31T09:14:00.000-08:00

Me and a close friend debated for abit, and we finally felt that it's just being human and beyond. Hahahaha lets just save our selves and all we can =D SUPArmun

RRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2010-01-29T11:10:00.001-08:00

I'm Finally Free from the strangling ropes of despair, I've finally understand my path, And that is to _|_ everything. And take life lightly and live more leisurely =D imma concentrate on my band during the upcoming holidays, imma get my hair re bonded cos it is way too stubborn, imma Do Fucking well for my biotechnology course as i am Truely smarter than My class, Its a joke i'm losing, A DISGRACE. As for the religion bit, I believe what i want, there fore its on my blog? you can choose what you deem fit for your beliefs, message is clear that i do NOT wanna hear any religious crap out of any 1, for I AM already sparing ALL else from Mine. I realize of my anger, i'm pissed at myself! HAHAHA And all the Fail attempts of opening my real personality, Instead i Cracked my Skull With a Sledge hammer and had amnesia for this entire year, Though my grades are suffering, it is still salvageable, As i look in my eyes every chilly night and Have such faith in my Potential for Greatness. OK THIS IS CHEESY FUCK U GUYS HAHAHAHA

summery of the weeks.

2010-01-26T05:49:00.000-08:00

HAD TEST, AND STUFF, AND OUTINGS, AND PEOPLE to attend to. lol
had to get a mc for last last Thursday, cos if i didn't, i wouldn't be allowed to take a test that is 15% of a particular impt subject, AND i didn't manage to get it.. that particular day, none of my class mates called me to tell me at all, only AFTER the test did they bothered =.= and doctors ask of us to stay home if we are sick, so i did, and didn't get the mc, even skipped my floor-ball competition, wtf? so i was sick but only missed a day, and came back on Friday, Monday, and Tuesday, than i went to find the teacher, cos nothing seems to be happening when you wait, he said i needed to get a mc for a day i didn't visit the doctor at all, so i tried. doc told me its ILLEGAL SO the teacher Purposely wasted my time, and the next day i came finding him at 9 as promised, he wasn't he didn't turned up, turns out he just told my care person and washed his hands off, so now i got another clown, telling me about MCs, learning a lesson, I'm obviously desperate because 15% is no joke, and i dont need YOU to tell me whats wrong, i already know, YOU JUST DEcide to be lenient or not, if not, just shut up? so that day i was still sick, and my hopes of getting my GPA up just flopped, couldn't feel any shittier that day, and none of my friends couldn't or rather didn't bother to cheer me up, just went on with thier, eh whats for lunch? All the moronic minute things instead of me lol? But some did ^^ er, maybe try harder, i still feel, f u c k e d up. went out with the rich mofo's apparently spent $60 on food for both dinners ONLY and still didn't enjoy it as much as i was still coughing madly, this monday, was my b mic test and i was suppose to copy my friend? but he ended up copying me Hah, i was so sure i would ace the test, andi was the first few to leave the lt early, when i came out, i realise a my answer to a KEY qns was wrong, LOL turns out i pressed log7 instead of log71 in my calculator and final answer 3 times the actual, hah but final answer carries a mere 1 mark so i'm sure i would still get the working marks up till the end, Feeling Great huh? few minutes later, this bitch had to turn everyones mood bad but shouting and screaming and making a fucking scene, IF you're angry at a dude? dont affect your friends? what a bitch man i could slap her really hard. so i decided to skip cell b lecture and head home to study, apparantly slept through out the after noon and played games at the evening, during this time, that same bitch kept calling my handphone, i'm sorry to call you a bitch, you are just so fucking annoying, about some photo i uploaded onto facebook, a mere unglam photo, lol? a comments about chilling and not be a total spoiled fag, apart from her height, she is a total toddler. i'm so irritated by her actions up till now i think i wont bother considering her opinions for quite a long time, i only discuss with mentally capable people. and today... Poor jolo Hah feel sick, Cheers for you! same fighting spirit i have, i mean in coming to class sick, but i realise mine was a stupid action and you shouldn't follow, your sickness is gonna last my dear, lol... k ty and bye

Hiring.

2010-01-12T09:00:00.000-08:00

I need some 1 to help me with my blog skin.. LOL I'm pathetically incompetent at this field...

FML series.

2010-01-12T08:43:00.000-08:00

I met my teammates at the basement of engine block, and there were also the rugby girls there waiting for their bus, so me, not changed yet, decided to go change to my attire, i thought i saw my senior going into the toilet on the right so i followed, at this point i only look on the left side as i was trying to find him, i saw a cubicle being occupied so i went to a vacant cubicle to change, i came out while trying to fold my clothes, and saw this girl washing her hands at the sink...... wtf? Next,
i said Oh Shit uber loudly, And she smiled at me and i rushed out...... wtf? Next,
My captain saw me came out of the girls toilet and decided to make a announcement to the team...... mofo =/
HAHAHA fml.

Knowledge

2010-01-07T09:24:00.000-08:00

I've desired mastery of the mind.. just had a gay chat with zack lol, so i'm feeling quite assured i'm on the right track, as for those that are just there to fuck everything up, I've noticed now, and Fuck You, no more distractions, i'm purely concentrating now. but the true test will come when i've to face those moments, well time will tell, and this is not a emo post, its a truth post, compared to telling it to some invisible ghost of a "lord" some faggots adopt as they have too low of a self esteem to think things through for them selve and are trying to fuck everyone else with thier low level of intelligence ,Hah thats what i think of christians. your beliefs are a joke. Oh and this is not a religious post as well, just a commitment post. oh well Ja na =D

IPHONE!!!!

2009-12-26T07:53:00.000-08:00

continuing if i can still rmb, oh hey What The Fuck? whats the point of having my own room if my dad keeps entering? and each time he comes in he leaves a comment and my very dull FF(fuckface) now i cant remember so i will just talk about george carlin, he's a good man, if you youtube him. He's a real(praise the lord) "creation" of his =D well fuck you christians.

hmmm.

2009-12-22T10:19:00.000-08:00

what a random urge to blog, from start from last tuesday i went on a tonning spree rofl fuck it soem 1 came in my room

Strive?

2009-11-09T08:03:00.000-08:00

I'm like just a dude that strives for perfection? I've always been among Very different Groups, those that have proven to survive very well in this bull shit.
I've taken a piece of everywhere and harness it. and now i am it. than i realize, I've no personality, since i'm just a piece of various cultures, so i begin searching for my laughs again from my dead cold eyes. Now I've found it and realize again that I'm actually lonely and have no cliques apart from those different"me" i attained, so wtf am i doing?, 18 and pondering about shit every dam night, Indefinitely i thought that maybe i just need more girl friends whom are more sensitive or just a really good relationship with a girl, i think I've found one but my fear of rejection is just getting worse as i'm growing more desperate for a solution to true happiness, and again i'm emoing again now but i will eventually get over it, just sucks man. suicide is a joke. haiz... But actually each time i ponder if my mental is gonna survive it at the end. All my rejections and Breakups Have piled up, maybe its just time to let go.

Power?

2009-11-06T09:00:00.000-08:00

As i grow older, i feel more afraid to show affection, I Just try my best not to be shown as Weak, The strong me just wants to rip things apart and the gentle me is just feeling scared. mofopowers gone and all, i'm still not solved.
I'm so brave in everything except love, it thoroughly embarrasses Me as Strong and i keep colliding.. I'm back to playing retarded games, MAPLE CAN U EFFING believe MAPLE? i'm feeling very empty now, have almost no mood to scold vulgarities, Every where i look, i feel deceived and Bluffed, i think I'm now losing my individuality. I'm saying all this shit but i'd know some day i'd get over it and another i will be pondering over it again, still.. it just means sth when no 1 gives a shit anymore, and you can only don give a shit to everything else that matters. Overall i'm just saying, i'm losing faith in "friendship" "Courtship" And "Love". i'd probably be driven insane if i would to think about all this every where i look, it's really just draining me. Why couldn't i been Born a Nerd whom cant see what i see, i'm tired and sick of this. sleeping for a whole day didn't help, i've no records of 18 year olds playing Maple, and i'm actually being the people i condemned. All is said and done, Some how we Never Begun, Thank you Keldon for reading this Post roflmao, i'm entertaining my self, thoughs, what? what rubbish?, liking girls for thier smell? i find that insane.. what to do i'm retarded. Gun please?, i'm in the living room and i'm typing my thoughts down, hmm... If i'm that special and that one, why am i still feeling lonely?. am i doing the wrong stuff in life?. i've already burned bikes, trees and stuff, what else can i do?.

COrN FFEaSt ShIOne.

2009-08-12T05:07:00.000-07:00

Today is the day i announce this mofo

flying off to America like now... i know i would miss him terribly because we have spent our Fing lousy and tiresome secondary school life sticking together even though we rarely have the time to do so, he is also responsible for OPENING my eyes to this cruel sucky world, and this coming December, we might be going overseas and i dont have a operation name lol.. but I'm gonna miss you man, haha cheers for the fellowship, screw those who left us and lets just keep smiling =]

Me VERY ANGRY

2009-08-08T00:56:00.000-07:00

ARGH FUCK IT MAN WHY ARE MY FATHER AND MY ELDEST BROTHER FUCKING BURDEN TO MY FAMILY AZ SFTFGVFR DWC EWMNSVHBkl'ajsnk;'w FUCK IT, besides that,
Today i had the most tiring fb training ever simply cos it's the last till exam ends, i called my mom to make sure my lunch is already bought before i went home, when i reached home and about to bath i see my fucking faggoting fucked up father eating my lunch, MY BLOOD BOILED IMMEDIATELY i wanted to fucknig whack the shit out of him at that moment ARGHARHGARHGHRGRAHGRHGRAHGR IF I HAD A GUN I WOULD SHOOT HIS HEAD AND FUCKING TOSS HIS BODY OUT THE WINDOW. FUCK IT I'M IN SO MUCH PLIGHT BECAUSE OF THIER SELFISHNESS. IF I EVERy becoME LIDDAT HTIS I WILL TAKE MY FUCKed up LIFE. FUCK IT. FUCK YOU GUYS

OMG,

2009-07-27T18:59:00.000-07:00

Oh shit, jus woke up, 9.30 am =.= i'm suppose to reach shcool at 9. and it's a tutorial, meaning i will get marked late. zzz
but i cant be bothered. late=absent what the point, gonna miss the lesson today =/
i'm not suppose to but i'm blaming my old hand phone which doesn't work properly... alarms didn't ring and today i'm screwed =`[

AVA music video making

2009-07-27T03:55:00.000-07:00

had J to wake me with a call at 7, and he did surprisingly lol. although i was still 30 mins late because i think i dozed back to sleep after his call haha.
i wasen't the latest because G came slightly after me. so we went to the place, BREAKFAST WAS PROVIDED lalalala, ate a little more than most of them but i saw S taking double what i ate lmao, she claims to wana slim down but.. haha we went in and waited for the rest of AVA fans, i'm not really a fan yet, just interested.
some of them look really wierd though, with distorions in body parts and uneven distribution of amino acids and lipids LOL. I'm glad to know 1 of the girl there learns kick boxing which i FIND SUPER OMFG HOT...... she's not that pretty but that fact makes all the difference, yeah i love sportive girls... wtf? mean while J was doing sth wonderous with his hair

and this is very disturbing..

went in did the video thing.. till j, g and y had to go off for thier band practice and they promised to return later.
so i was there with s but she left soon after zzz i'm alone there like a mofo, did the video until they returned, soon the vid was done and ethey played 1 whole song for the fans, and the mosh pit was fun, THIS TIME i caught a FLYING idiot instead of letting the guy kick my face, haha had 2 other practices previouslly.
we went out to cool down

celebrating to good friends.

2009-07-14T07:51:00.000-07:00

This might actually sound gay, but, i would like to thank them for all the support and stuff, they showed me the brighter side of life as a person with a personality. although now i might hunger more, and feel that i'm too smart and experience at everything, i'm still glad i have this mentality. i'm glad that i've been pushed in the right direction and have such a excellent upbringed mentality and heart.
I thank you, K S D W J.

Life's A B i E t A c C h H

2009-06-21T11:28:00.000-07:00

on the 19-6-09, did my usual waste of life till 11 when i rushed over to D's.
i had a surprise for him, it was also surprising that he did not find my surprise surprising zzz so went in, and headed out to ws PASARMALAM FTW, V and M were suppose to be there already, but were missing, so me and D ordered our ramly burgsfirst, when they came, they too ordered, but recieved my burgers, than i looked over to the cook, and he started laughing, zzz i'm a sucker lol. went back, let D's dog, H took a shit around the jogging area, could not be bothered to clean after him and headed back, first time i could see a dog actually smiling and walking proudly LOL. actual plan was to play monopoly, but some how we "upgraded" to keyboard warriors, and play games via WC3.
left at 7 sharp and went straight back to sleep.
20-6-09 woke up at 12 and snoozed to 1 LOL and was fugging late for the meeting lol, met shaza, yvone, gerald, unknown quiet person and finally joel the whore. first _|_ i recieved from J EVER, yea i was last, so we headed to sentosa, and it was actually kinda boring cos it was too sunny and they didn't bring beach wear =.=
"beach party" ffs wth man? zzz at the varies stands where we can win freebies via games, i was queueing up with them and i was approached to help some 1 take picture, so i was o.o? so i also asked the girl to take picture with me LOL

i have to admit, some people there were really hot, and some are.... lol, i just gain a new prejudiced. it's people wearing bikinis, and FUCKING FORGET TO SHAVE. OMG
lol anyway, yvone and shaza wanted to do some body art, so had to queue for quite long and i thought i saw some 1 very familiar and i might have guessed it was luxuan from 4 years back, didn't pluck enough balls to reinstate our aquintance right there lol, and it passed. Saw madeline BUT, totally forogtten her name at the moment roflfag, there was this wierd surfing machine that i really wanted to try cos it seemed so easy, but it was hogged by totally fat americans that are totally sick, thier fats bounce and they are smiling lol. soon it was 5 and to mark the start of the concerts, they released 1000 ballons OHHH WOW, HOW retarded lol

First off was some tribal band that was awesome as a starter, i believe most of them are unnessary and they have too many members, there was also a tribal half naked guy in the middle dancing like a lmaozine.

next off was a a band that i farely liked, the singer is charismatic and has a good voice and knows how to move.

his gay pants, barely made it lol.

this is a nice photo man... but wth is,

Well i like his voice control but the pants... haha good movement though,
k i'm too dam lazy to continue because i did this thing 3 times and the software screwed up LOL Btw, i'm in http://club.stomp.com.sg/clubstomp/displayAlbum.do?id=631 haha cya =]

Dejavu from a romance vampire

2009-06-07T11:30:00.000-07:00

i remember when i was young, i had a dream, it was me playing floorball in a unfamiliar court, up till now, with a mix of guys and girls... wow.
it was sat, 6-6-09 asusual, i woke up late, but i ate a most wonderful breakfast prepared by my lovely mother, and that today i'm getting my new phone =] so i left for floor ball training with a completely full belly, and i was ofcourse late, what was surprising was that the girls team was there, when they were only suppose to do the joint training at 12pm, and another astonishing thing was that, 1 girl that i've been curious about that i see every lecture that doesn't seem very sportive is in the floor balls girls team =.=
WTF? YEAH so i went to do my late punishment and went back in, played blah blah,
didn't really got to talk to her much till we were on the court doing matches, "eye contact" i smiled, she smiled, me-didn't knew u were in floor ball, her-haha same for you, PEEP! lol... It's real funny how different guys behave in the presence of the opposite sex, my vice captain, took a crash to avoid hitting a girl which i later found out was his dearest, lol he seemed rather pissed. the fast players were all losing thier balance from a little push from the girls, and the tough players were not pushing like they used too, HAHAHAHA and overall, i thought i broke some one's titanium floor ball stick, he just had to put it in between my legs, =.= i turned and i later found that i had scratches on my legs and a bruise so.. lol headed home and out with my mom for the phone, A contacted me but i did not have mood to reply so i ignored it, V later asked me out for drinking, LOL stupid games. i told A i was at dte and will only be free after 11.50 cos my movie was at 9.50
i played with them a little and went to get my tickets and went to eat with my mom, they were suppose to be drinking but ended at dte food court for dono which "unknown" reason. So i ofcourse had to smile cos my mom was there and i didn't like my families meddling with every puny outbreak of nonsense people cause me. nicer way to put it, i didn't want her to worry lol. WOW, nominated ammy award fake smile from keldon. i saw photographers, i also saw god, he told me the kway chap at dte is not bad, so i believed him and ate that. blah blah, watched the movie, went home and called to check with ada about her where abouts. i'm at home lol, kk nvm =]
Now, 7-6-09 woke up early, ate lunch and continued my ranks of the keyboard warriors. went to sleep from 3 to 6 and went out with family,excluding my dad, and ate at din tai fong, at tm. quite crowded, so we headed directly to the place, I FINALLY get to eat my xiao long pao, after milleniums of compacted urges. yum, than headed home to keyboard warrior again lol. while it was the exciting part of ong bak, A had to call, wtf.. spoil mood 1. zz she demanded to hear what i had to ask, i demanded a personal conversation, but she wanted it on sms? phone? o well, she's already at my door step, Hello!, How are You, haha, this is not funny =.= wow? oh? kay.. talk sensitive crap and conversation over. cya =]

05-06-09 HELLO!

2009-06-07T08:44:00.000-07:00

LOL, i woke up proud and mighty for the biochemistry term test. =] i ate a few days old wierd crap for breakfast and left for school XD. But partially my blood boils because I DONT HAVE MY HAND PHONE YET, wait... this is on the 5-6-09 any way, i though i didn't have a certain topics worth of study material but i finally found it while i was riding the bus =.= so did my 5 mins of study for that totally alien topic O.O i went to school, "late" and got cut short off 5 mins but i did the paper in 50 mins =] cos i'm me. and partially due to that i needed to take a shit lol.
after the paper every 1 was out there talking EH the answer is #$%^ right? RIGHT?
FUCKING TELL ME RIGHT ANOT? FUCKED!@#$^
lol hahaha maybe not.. than it was suppose to be a class outing which caught me in surprise and i totally didn't mind, half were not there, and 2 i really want to be there were not going =.= zzz class bonding ftw =]
so we went, bought the oversized tickets which was $13 because it wass digital. lol first time for me but i think it's faggoting either way's we had spare time, so we went for lunch, the girls wanted to see some clothes, but i sortoff really find thier style repulsive, but o well =] so we watched the show, monster vs aliens.
honestly, if monsters came from earth, they wouldn't be called monsters but animals, so "obviouslly" monsters are aliens. so sympathy followed and the show is a obvious joke. So, to mark my first 3D show, i stole the "special" glasses Muahahaha. than headed home =]

nothing in my mind, ftloml

2009-05-30T20:27:00.000-07:00

Woah, friday.... there was no tutorial and wz propose a run of 4.298672km lol,i was tempted, but on the otherhand, i had a chance to leave earlier, but jl had to talk to me about sth "impt" hahahaha nth is important to me now, NOTHING!. so i met them after i settled my matrix card issue, haiz. In the end it was just about a minute girl that i touched and know about. LOL haha so he brought me back to the past and i literally summerise her life for him, haiz, next i was pondering if i should go karate, as it was my friends birthday, and she's responsible for this blog being up and beautiful =] so in the end i skipped and went home to rest first.
i woke up at 10 O.O and it was at pasirris park, PIT ONE FFS. i went through mazes and spider webs and finally reached to find them all to be formal chc members, fyi i'm a really anti christian person, ESPECIALLY chc. I think i did well in dragging 1 out and the rest just pop out themselves lol, when i reached, one of the dudes said , he's not that gaywhat.. LOL so i looked at the bd girl she had a fuck face rofl. it's alright, she explained to me it wasm eant for another gay, the other guy who came, unworthy of being announced. half way, 1 of the guys went to get the cake, and surprisingly came with pads LOL. wow... he bought pads... and we could deduce that bd girl is having a break through haha. finally my dudes came and they were just there for the sake of fuck, =.= we played water bombs zzz i was innocent =[ i got backstabbed and point blank on my back by the bd girl, finally she was grabbing my hand trying to get me wet while every 1 else suddenly decided that we have charisma, i was dodging while swinging bd girl around, hence she got hit repeatedly.
finally we settled for bd cake, eh make a wish and blow, made already la, kk blow, wooow, k who wan eat?. lol no 1 wanted to eat the cake. finally left for home, thanks =]

merry 2 merry Oh...

2009-05-07T05:52:00.000-07:00

It was a sunday, and i was woken up by a ray of light which really sucks.. and it was about 10 so i quickly did my com stuff. Anyway, both me and "princessyo" were both late, and we wanted to go see around at far east. During the train ride, as i was talking to yo about "stuff" i saw a mysterious dark shadow encrouching me... i could feel the presence and the fear of every other molecue as they scatter leaving me... This fucking fat maley woman =.= when she sat, HER ARSE WAS SO FAT that it push me 1/3 a seat away into yo LOL while he was laughing my hilarious expression he knows i hate fat people. so we continued talking until bugis where she got off, i sigh in relief as i did the christian cross thing with my right hand and that made every 1 in the cabin laugh LOL. as yong lauged tried to control and laughed when we allighted at city hall to change train, his excuse was "trying to be courtous" LOL laughing is already not courtous, cut the cock hahaha.

any way we reached and quickly headed to far east did our shopping and emerged... we both bought girls bags from punk star LOL and the same 1 with the dog on the front hahaha we had a good plan, unfortunately my mom stole the bag from me, and yong got caught by a random pretty stranger in the life and had a emberressing life ride LOL
we had ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to topman at orchad followed by taka,

Headed to bugis next because we wanted to get slippers from urban male, we ate at HIP dinners USA and payed only 14 each? and got 2$15 voucher to billy bombers O.O what a deal..
LOL and yong "remembered" the free movie tickets for every 2items purchased and convinced me to buy with him, firstly, the slipper were 40 each, but we were only charged $31 each by 2 BUFFED the blur male cashiers and 2nd we recieved 2 tickets instead of 1 LOL i quickly noticed and acted blur, while yong was still scringing his eye brows trying to figure out "Stuff" LOL when he realised he was also playing along my act HAHAHAH 2 mofos finally we both headed home as bugis had to cathay because the tickets were only meant to be in cathay o well sadded.

First Day Of School

2009-04-20T05:40:00.000-07:00

LOL i woke up 4 times before i was fully up, haiz such a lazy day...
i'm absolutely still in a holiday mood, haha every 1 can always use spare holidays haha. at the bus stop, i got a call from biotech asking me if i decided to go into thier slot and i agreed, this is a surprise to my cousin in bio tech as if i end up in her class, i htink she will O.O lol, so..... i went to school and reach before 9. During the bus trip i was smsing with 2 dudes, feels gay, but.... lol both were from G.E.T. but only 1 of them is my class mate, and he was still sleeping at home lol while i was suppose to meet the other 1 because i was not sure when my lessons start and where, so the truth is, my class was at 2, and that guy was rightfully sleeping while i'm a nonsensical dick head filled with anxiety lmao. so at tp entrence, i headed back home.

at 12.30 i met the sleeping dude, his name is mark fyi lol so we ate at business canteen with another dude, ffs it's super crowded, and whats with people wanted to see business girls? they aren't that awesome and the are not queens =.= i treat females with respect and guys with with different perspective of respect. so we ate and OMG, so sickening =.=

so we went to class and i though it was gonna be hell, The Halls Of Nerds
so i waited wiht mark ourside the class room and soon we got in with some random dude. we waited for 30 mins , He waited, i took a nap lol followed by our care taker coming to relieve us, with nonsense for another 30 mins, than he decided to bring us to the gaming lab, where i played dota for the remaining 3 hours. LOL wad a joke of a day, before dinner met clarke, and saw my RELIEZ small group, haha i had to leave them becuse i have a prior arrangement with clarky here, so we ate at astons, this time there was no digger ear lady, although it was the 1, we talk about stuff, and finally headed back where i am now, BYEBYE thank you :)

lalalalalalala

2009-04-13T21:04:00.000-07:00

WOOOO, I'm here to celebrate me being single for almost 18 years XD
so i myself know all types of things to do when you're bored during your holiday,
the 4 best solutions but do not assure you a fun holiday XD.
from the bottom, we have........ get a job. LOL
it really sucks seriously, but it really gets the job done, you can also make new friends that might potentially suck or be your bff for life =D.
it can also earn you $_$ and experience in places you probably never enter again in your life but, O well life is full of shit and learning new stuff wont hurt =]
bad thing is, you most likely will neglect your current friends or soul-mate for measly money and most often you don't choose when to work, the work choose when so a lot of shit can be stirred up and you will emo throughout your holiday.
SECOND PLACEEEEE, get a new hobby or improve it, let say you see this pair of blades and you feel like doing slalom, well DO IT =.= or see dancers getting hot at sweaty and you feel like joining them haha orfat people watching tv all day to add on to thier amazing assets to show to the world, i'm happy and big and severely overweight LOL, fyi, i'm against... fat people, gay people, indian people and god.
hahahaha back to topic, i play the guitar for 3 years of my life, and i still suck LOL because i did not go all out for it, if i did i would be reasonable good now hahaha, theres many forums in sg that allows finding or sharing of hobbies, you can start there, GO FOR IT and your holiday would be fun, bad point is, your new hobby might be expensive or be with the wrong type of friends, either way it's up to you.
the 2nd best... hahahaha is to find a bunch of people who are interested in you, this is a lowly idea but it REALLY WORKS it's FOC and you feel great and proud 24/7 and yes i'm a piece of lowly mother fucking shit well, that's me =] some of those loser might even buy stuff FOR YOU LOL, BUT FFS have some integrity, indulge reasonably, company is good enough, don't be a serious piece of shit, or i will come for you =3 and please, dont EVER hint. dont wait till your pursuers all flood you with tattoo's on thier ( . )( . ) for you to realise your mistake and that you have ruined people lives.
For my last topic, it's the best it's really sweet, bitter and a waste of your life, but thats wad holidays are for =] . GO OUT, FIND A REALLY HOT PERSON YOU LIKE, and try to chase the person hahahahaha dont blame ANY 1 when your heart is broken cos ffs, dont expect the person to like you back, just put some hope into it and that will raise your spirit =] our heart feels heavy when we are sad, and light when we are happy in all the aspects. you can experiment with your heart now and learn how to control your feelings better. THIS IS THE BEST FOR LOSERS LIKE EVERYONE that includes me cos i wrote this shit XD HAHAHA thank you

biginning of new me,

2009-04-11T23:26:00.000-07:00

I would like to say, i was convinced that this camp would be meaningful as my brother kept gloating about it and that my friend who is a Group Leader from another school even pleaded me to go to my OWN SCHOOLS camp so i went and realise that the Foc is really fun and great, only bad points is it's humid,hot and sweat.
planning is good. food is average, Group Leaders are GREAT, before than i was pondering about sth related to finding your own joy to give you your purpose in life. I've been thinking since then and found out that joy can be found from the simplest things. as i see the group leaders cheer happily and play games, make jokes. so obviouslly i got jealous LOL, rediculous.
Through out the whole day, GLs come over to try to make me joyful but it's so hard to forget other things, and that place of heat, boringness and humidity kept bringing it back into my mind And wanted out of that "wretched" place, i consulted my brother, which was a Ex group leader there, but graduated. about it and he convinced me to continue with the 2nd day, the start was really boring as we were just cheering akin to the first day =.= but towards the afternoon it became amazingly fun XD I realise all the Group leaders love each other like family and at the end of the day, some of them were already crying as they had to leave for personnal reason. lol i bet tp mass dance can own any other polys dance haha. we have over six hundred freshies and two hundred group leaders and 50 other etc members XD That night, the one of the GL came to my group and told us something spiritual hahaha, so i'm hurmoured, but! he made sense and i could feel that he was sad that the camp is gonna end.. so i thought and realise that The family spirit, was to be shared with all of us, that this simple joy is available for a cowering heart of mine and that nothing could replace this so, i knew this is a joy factory hahaha.
During the 3rd day, WATER FUN, i swore firstly to any lowly lord above and below that my balls were soaking wet with soap and stuff i don really like. I could shit inside and it wont make any difference. LOL and i found out that my body doesn't really say i'm the fittest person in gvss, more of a couch potato hahaha i'm all white and getting flabbier hahaha although i can still do my tummy wave XD but my resolve is to fully dedicate my self to Karate, so i can kick God and all the other pieces of crap to the sun and let them beg for mercy from it. ANYWAY, at the end of the camp, we will have a "secret" night meeting at the cpf building at tampenes area, lol secretive eh? i knew it the first day i came rofl.
So i went, they asked us to rush over so i went home and went there asap, when i reached, i had 3 other reliez members? lol non of the GLs were here yet. so i too my time finding people, it was cheering eating and fun again, the joke is, a mere 5 drops of water chased all the TP people into shelter rofl.. wad losers hahahhaha .
To end it off, i asked 20 girls for thier numbers =] and a few gls and male friends that i thought worthy LOL i sound dam bad when ever i say that, but thats just how i feel =[ wad a fuck up i am, thank you =]